in the lighter steps of yesteryears come the name of which
I cannot remember insofar as I am awash with the delusion
of what a poem, or what to make out of a poem, or what use
is there, to heave out poems – I was then raw, supple if you
may allow, like dew on blade of grass, face front
against the blithesome matutinal, heart somewhere displaced,
beginning to look for something the inward expects,
as though things happen for the first time again,
with wisdom of what to look for – resigned, young,
inconsistent with the word, fetal in my hands: pen and paper.
a well-guarded secret
swaying in tune, curtailed by some sort of split-second inhibition,
trying to save face and give this blandness a whole new meaning
and arrive at two intersecting points where the lost self will be
redeemed in finding – monologue of sorts, dark it was,
dampened by such bleakness, this leitmotif;
all around me purged of sound, strip to rogue without
senses, suddenness at the tip of my body, lunging at any
feat of light that succeeds to champion this behemoth of blackness,
to complete this impedance, a singular impetus to fruition ekphrasis,
yet not quite, deep in the study again, as though
yesteryears are all but the days starting to disintegrate
into tiny segments to wreak something devastatingly vague, as in,
a language curled in the tongue, relentlessly flexed against the wall
of me, losing yet no little piece.
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 7:40 AM UTC
in the lighter steps of yesteryears come the name of which
I cannot remember insofar as I am awash with the delusion
of what a poem, or what to make out of a poem, or what use
is there, to heave out poems – I was then raw, supple if you
may allow, like dew on blade of grass, face front
against the blithesome matutinal, heart somewhere displaced,
beginning to look for something the inward expects,
as though things happen for the first time again,
with wisdom of what to look for – resigned, young,
inconsistent with the word, fetal in my hands: pen and paper.
a well-guarded secret
swaying in tune, curtailed by some sort of split-second inhibition,
trying to save face and give this blandness a whole new meaning
and arrive at two intersecting points where the lost self will be
redeemed in finding – monologue of sorts, dark it was,
dampened by such bleakness, this leitmotif;
all around me purged of sound, strip to rogue without
senses, suddenness at the tip of my body, lunging at any
feat of light that succeeds to champion this behemoth of blackness,
to complete this impedance, a singular impetus to fruition ekphrasis,
yet not quite, deep in the study again, as though
yesteryears are all but the days starting to disintegrate
into tiny segments to wreak something devastatingly vague, as in,
a language curled in the tongue, relentlessly flexed against the wall
of me, losing yet no little piece.
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