I remember that feeling
that heavy weight I held
just wanting to die already
but being terrified of hell
I was suicidal
but only in my mind
I could never make my body commit that selfish, wanted crime
my breathing had no point
and my life felt like death
I couldn't see past the pain that I wanted to forget
"you'll always be alone" kept ringing through my head
telling me that all would be fine when I was finally dead
I just wish I could travel back
and tell me where I am
out of that black hole
and into life again
they say it gets better
which is hard to believe
but I now can testify
that it rang true for me
Dec 30, 2015
Dec 30, 2015 at 1:14 AM UTC
I remember that feeling
that heavy weight I held
just wanting to die already
but being terrified of hell
I was suicidal
but only in my mind
I could never make my body commit that selfish, wanted crime
my breathing had no point
and my life felt like death
I couldn't see past the pain that I wanted to forget
"you'll always be alone" kept ringing through my head
telling me that all would be fine when I was finally dead
I just wish I could travel back
and tell me where I am
out of that black hole
and into life again
they say it gets better
which is hard to believe
but I now can testify
that it rang true for me
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