I am a lost puppy
Searching for a forever home
Only to find abusive owners
I am my own disease
It's always been that way
My happiness depends on others
To be loved
To love
Is the only way
I could ever really smile
I have this incessant need
To be someone's
To be held by a man
With a glimmer in his eyes
To feel beautiful
No matter how long I am alone
Whether a day or a year
The loneliness sinks in and eats at me
Without someone to be mine I sit and wallow
The racing thoughts increasing by day
The urge for a blade
The pain
The desire to give up
To give in
I lose hope when I am alone
Hope for a future
I don't know what to do anymore
I don't know how to fight this
I just wish I knew how to be happy
Without needing someone else
But that will never be me
Never.
Dec 1, 2015
Dec 1, 2015 at 10:43 AM UTC
I am a lost puppy
Searching for a forever home
Only to find abusive owners
I am my own disease
It's always been that way
My happiness depends on others
To be loved
To love
Is the only way
I could ever really smile
I have this incessant need
To be someone's
To be held by a man
With a glimmer in his eyes
To feel beautiful
No matter how long I am alone
Whether a day or a year
The loneliness sinks in and eats at me
Without someone to be mine I sit and wallow
The racing thoughts increasing by day
The urge for a blade
The pain
The desire to give up
To give in
I lose hope when I am alone
Hope for a future
I don't know what to do anymore
I don't know how to fight this
I just wish I knew how to be happy
Without needing someone else
But that will never be me
Never.
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