i'm humbled being here
and i'm not sure why
i'm visiting
so i'm allowed
right?
so many
the stones seem to go on forever
and i dare not step on one
no
that would be disrespectful
inconsiderate
so i walk around
sometimes hop
if it's last minute
and i find him
here
alone
a grey stone
a military stone
a proud army man
but how proud can you be
after the fact
i clean it up
the stone
brush off the dirt, dried leaves
so i can look
and i look
reading his name
my heart skips a beat
my throat constricts
my stomach hurts
i miss him
my dad
i surely, truly
unapologetically
miss him
but it doesn't really matter, does it
he's not coming back
he's gone
and i'm left here
to figure things out by myself
and it hurts.
May 3, 2015
May 3, 2015 at 3:43 PM UTC
i'm humbled being here
and i'm not sure why
i'm visiting
so i'm allowed
right?
so many
the stones seem to go on forever
and i dare not step on one
no
that would be disrespectful
inconsiderate
so i walk around
sometimes hop
if it's last minute
and i find him
here
alone
a grey stone
a military stone
a proud army man
but how proud can you be
after the fact
i clean it up
the stone
brush off the dirt, dried leaves
so i can look
and i look
reading his name
my heart skips a beat
my throat constricts
my stomach hurts
i miss him
my dad
i surely, truly
unapologetically
miss him
but it doesn't really matter, does it
he's not coming back
he's gone
and i'm left here
to figure things out by myself
and it hurts.
