a crevice carved
deep within
cutting through
the unnecessary
hacking away
at the undesirable
pieces
of things
unneeded
unwanted
but still
there
why?
the scrambled thoughts
i've organized
have urged me
to be rid of
to toss aside
this garbage
that fills my thoughts
fills my mind
consumes my head
with
darkness
an unseen truth
yet a suffocating
existence
of what is real
this unhappiness
this unsettlement
a wavering reality
of
discontentment
and it cannot
or it will not
leave me
and so
i live my life
nodding
smiling
urging those around me
to embrace
to love
to feel utterly fulfilled
in an envelope of plastic
that cannot
be
real
but that which
is a totally acceptable
form of
life.
May 25, 2020
May 25, 2020 at 4:58 PM UTC
a light shines
and it's coming from you
what i thought of as dull
is illuminated
because of your presence
your smile
awakens me
your laughter
brings forth a smile
the conversation that pours from you
fills the room
with comfort
an easiness
flows from you
like honey from a comb
and it works
it fits
you fit
and my heart bursts
for you are love
you are peace
and from deep within me
you extract
happiness.
Dec 25, 2019
Dec 25, 2019 at 8:08 PM UTC
you will move
among fields of grain
your limbs craving
the soft touch
of whispered grasses
you will dance
the dance of unbridled
happiness and enraptured joy
closing your eyes
to an imagined peacefulness
love surrounds you
peace reaches for you
you ache to be fulfilled
harmonized
sustained
within a fortress
of unblemished
union
movements smooth
objective solidified
freedom from interference
obtained.
Dec 2, 2019
Dec 2, 2019 at 7:44 PM UTC
plunging into despair
the grip weakens me
from the inside
out
all hope
i've gathered
evaporates
with pokes
of insecurity
and thoughts
of helplessness
the height i've gained
is slowly being pulled
downward
into a slouching mass
of indescribable
sadness
i fight
but the continued losses
brings in me
an indescribable
hopelessness
Dec 2, 2019
Dec 2, 2019 at 5:44 PM UTC
i'm known
only to me
i've faked
introduced
established
convinced
and allowed
a false persona
to shine
those who know me
don't
those who wish to
won't
i've struggled
to accept
the inevitable
that the me
i depict
contradicts
the me
i ache for.
Nov 17, 2019
Nov 17, 2019 at 7:23 PM UTC
you are the breath i crave
on lonely days
when desperation
suffocates my very soul
your embrace
warms me
the feelings of hopelessness
slowly draining
while i am filled
with temporary
ease
when i shake
you calm
when i cry
you soothe
when i feel alone
i think of you
and i dream
of love
and this love
the only love
in the purest of forms
cradles me
and lulls me into believing
i'm going to be
ok.
Nov 17, 2019
Nov 17, 2019 at 4:27 PM UTC
she: what is it about me?
he: what do you mean?
she: me...?
he: uh...
she: what don't i have?
he: uh...
she: i'm overweight...
he: um...
she: i'm unattractive
he: what?...
she: i'm boring
he: no...
she: i'm dumb
he: uh, well....
she: i give up
he: well, i....
she: nope, that's it, i give up
he: oh, come on...
she: quit trying to talk me out of it
he: i was only...
she: i'm done, good bye
he: wait, what, where are you...
she: have a good life
he:.....
he:....
he: what about dinner?
Sep 1, 2019
Sep 1, 2019 at 4:27 PM UTC
in my darkest moments
a poem pops
words twirl
in my brain
pushing
throbbing
willing me
to expel
fingers to keys
thoughts exploding
dark
darker
darkest
melodramatic
melancholy
mediocre
thoughts
based on a
monochromatic
life
that only the
mundane
may find
interesting
or so it seems.
Sep 1, 2019
Sep 1, 2019 at 4:22 PM UTC
belonging
then not
being swallowed
by a sea of emotion
then
drifting
bobbing
my eyes are closed
to what surrounds
me
i don't want to know
where i am
who has beckoned me
what has
disrupted my thoughts
i struggle to paddle back
fighting the current
suffering
tortured
to return
to the place
i feel the most
at home
safe
by myself
alone
i am comforted
embraced
by solitude
solitude.
Aug 18, 2019
Aug 18, 2019 at 12:14 AM UTC
coaxed towards
undesirable territory
she follows
playing along
wondering
curious
realizing
astonished
the fingers are pointed
at her
accusing eyes
bewildered faces
exclamations of
it was you!
thoughts of explanation
bubble towards
her lips
but she hesitates
holding herself
looking towards
the one
she thought she knew
knowing
she has been
betrayed
and the words
choke
in her throat
for she knows
whatever explanation
whatever truth
she may bring forth
isn't enough
to convince
the
ignorant.
Aug 16, 2019
Aug 16, 2019 at 8:19 PM UTC