Let me finish what I meant to say before
I'm sorry
For being so damaged
Wanting my death to happen to you
(*because I am not the one
who'll be left to pick up the pieces
and it is you
who will need to cope*)
I am sorry
That I am so so damaged and
broken beyond repair
That I sit and
Rip my skin into bits
So that I can feel
The burning under my skin
I haven't been hugged like that in ages
And I hope you don't know what happened to my shoulders
This is not just a phase
*I am so sorry
That this is not a simple phase*
I am sorry
That you got someone like me
Who thinks the way I do
And acts the way I do
Especially with myself
I am sorry
You didn't get someone more normal
Who can pretend they're alright
Convince themselves every night
And don't believe that there's
Something much better out there
That the universe is much crazier
And madder than can be believed
.
Mar 28, 2015
Mar 28, 2015 at 4:20 PM UTC
Let me finish what I meant to say before
I'm sorry
For being so damaged
Wanting my death to happen to you
(*because I am not the one
who'll be left to pick up the pieces
and it is you
who will need to cope*)
I am sorry
That I am so so damaged and
broken beyond repair
That I sit and
Rip my skin into bits
So that I can feel
The burning under my skin
I haven't been hugged like that in ages
And I hope you don't know what happened to my shoulders
This is not just a phase
*I am so sorry
That this is not a simple phase*
I am sorry
That you got someone like me
Who thinks the way I do
And acts the way I do
Especially with myself
I am sorry
You didn't get someone more normal
Who can pretend they're alright
Convince themselves every night
And don't believe that there's
Something much better out there
That the universe is much crazier
And madder than can be believed
.
I am sorry
You didn't get what you expect
I am so sorry
I told you the things I did
I am so so sorry
I exist
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