(maybe i'm a mistake)
mistake
mistakes happen all the time
just erase them and they'll be gone
erase the mistake
erase it
erase her
(erase me)
i wonder what being erased feels like
to feel nothing
but not in this way
this poisonous way
this painful way
of feeling nothing
i wonder what it feels like to be nothing
but not dirt nothing
not sludge nothing
not this nothing that stings
i wonder where the nothings go
where the mistakes go
when they're erased
i have to stop running
i run from the right things
and to the wrong thing
or is it to the right things
and away from the wrong things
it's hard to tell
when everything is in motion
can't we press pause
someone press pause
please
someone just press pause
i am spinning and falling
but i don't hit the ground
the dirt
(i am the dirt)
i just keep spinning
and i flip over and over
without touching anything
without stopping
without pausing
(someone stop me)
i keep running
(*make me stop
make me sit tight
and stay in one place
make me fixed
not a mistake*)
(*erase me
erase me and replace me*)
replace (me) with the correct thing
the right thing
the finally-makes-sense thing
the feels-right thing
the safe thing
the not-so-crazy thing
the stable thing
(*erase me
and send me
to the place the nothings go*.)
Mar 17, 2015
Mar 17, 2015 at 8:47 PM UTC
(maybe i'm a mistake)
mistake
mistakes happen all the time
just erase them and they'll be gone
erase the mistake
erase it
erase her
(erase me)
i wonder what being erased feels like
to feel nothing
but not in this way
this poisonous way
this painful way
of feeling nothing
i wonder what it feels like to be nothing
but not dirt nothing
not sludge nothing
not this nothing that stings
i wonder where the nothings go
where the mistakes go
when they're erased
i have to stop running
i run from the right things
and to the wrong thing
or is it to the right things
and away from the wrong things
it's hard to tell
when everything is in motion
can't we press pause
someone press pause
please
someone just press pause
i am spinning and falling
but i don't hit the ground
the dirt
(i am the dirt)
i just keep spinning
and i flip over and over
without touching anything
without stopping
without pausing
(someone stop me)
i keep running
(*make me stop
make me sit tight
and stay in one place
make me fixed
not a mistake*)
(*erase me
erase me and replace me*)
replace (me) with the correct thing
the right thing
the finally-makes-sense thing
the feels-right thing
the safe thing
the not-so-crazy thing
the stable thing
(*erase me
and send me
to the place the nothings go*.)
Listening to From Autumn to Ashes.
