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I missed the scorching, burning screaming in my throat... But it's like a big red button an on switch with no off. I started something that I don't know how to stop And now I'm sitting on the bathroom floor typing this up silently crying waiting for the next time this volcano will erupt. I've missed the cold of the porcelain the whispers of mia: my fakest friends reminding me of the stretch marks forming on my skin the disgusting nagging coming from within I'm supposed to be getting better... I don't want to lie to you... But I don't want to.
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Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 2:26 AM UTC
I ******* up and I should care more but I don't.
I missed the scorching, burning screaming in my throat... But it's like a big red button an on switch with no off. I started something that I don't know how to stop And now I'm sitting on the bathroom floor typing this up silently crying waiting for the next time this volcano will erupt. I've missed the cold of the porcelain the whispers of mia: my fakest friends reminding me of the stretch marks forming on my skin the disgusting nagging coming from within I'm supposed to be getting better... I don't want to lie to you... But I don't want to.
I'm a fetching hypocrite but I've relapsed and honestly my anxiety is gone for the moment. I know it's only going to get worse from here on out but at least I have a release for a few minutes.
#illness#eating#disorder#whatever#mental#careless#sick#ed#relapse
SmileNowSunshine
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SmileNowSunshine
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Feb 25, 2015
Feb 25, 2015 at 2:26 AM UTC
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