I'm tired of you invading my sleep, perusing my sheets, directing my dreams
It's the pain in my stomach I can't suppress, holy ****
I'm depressed
Honestly it wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the voices, the pins and the needles
The diversions in my speeches just to make me seem okay
The silly face I put on to play pretend, to stay sane
If only I could make you feel the empty hole inside
The one I feel every night every night every night
But in this hole there are knives and spears
poking
At my veins but not splicing them just yet, oh no not yet
It's torment and torture that's all in my head
I can't stop thinking of the same things in dread
No one loves me no one loves me no one cares
Oh God, I'm so lonely
It's manic
I panic
Oh God, I'm not sane
But no one I've found ever feels the same
Oh God, I want out of my body I want out of this dream
It's so hazy and lucid but this is reality
I want to go back to sleep
Oh God, please let me sleep
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 9:42 PM UTC
I'm tired of you invading my sleep, perusing my sheets, directing my dreams
It's the pain in my stomach I can't suppress, holy ****
I'm depressed
Honestly it wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the voices, the pins and the needles
The diversions in my speeches just to make me seem okay
The silly face I put on to play pretend, to stay sane
If only I could make you feel the empty hole inside
The one I feel every night every night every night
But in this hole there are knives and spears
poking
At my veins but not splicing them just yet, oh no not yet
It's torment and torture that's all in my head
I can't stop thinking of the same things in dread
No one loves me no one loves me no one cares
Oh God, I'm so lonely
It's manic
I panic
Oh God, I'm not sane
But no one I've found ever feels the same
Oh God, I want out of my body I want out of this dream
It's so hazy and lucid but this is reality
I want to go back to sleep
Oh God, please let me sleep
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