I'm not sure you exist
Though I've had my arms around you
I still don't know
I've written you
Over and over
Snippets of you in every character
Every voice
Every narrative
All finished
Before I met you
Even then
I knew you
Knew the shape of your smile
The width of your shoulders
The bold flash in your eyes
When your instinct comes out
I wrote all those things
Not knowing you were in the world
My chest folds in in itself
When I see those reflections
Those impossible men
I loved all of them
And so I love you
But
Your heart is taken
And so mine goes to dust
And still
I'm not sure
You exist
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 8:51 PM UTC
I'm not sure you exist
Though I've had my arms around you
I still don't know
I've written you
Over and over
Snippets of you in every character
Every voice
Every narrative
All finished
Before I met you
Even then
I knew you
Knew the shape of your smile
The width of your shoulders
The bold flash in your eyes
When your instinct comes out
I wrote all those things
Not knowing you were in the world
My chest folds in in itself
When I see those reflections
Those impossible men
I loved all of them
And so I love you
But
Your heart is taken
And so mine goes to dust
And still
I'm not sure
You exist
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