And if I were being honest with myself,
I'd say how much I miss him,
Draw his fingers on my notebook.
If I were feeling brave enough,
I'd tell you about the colour of his bare skin,
tell you how beautiful he was when the light poured in.
If I could bear to think about it,
I'd crawl through the spaces in my head, where love leaked in,
And stay a while.
If I were being honest with myself,
I'd admit how
I was actually on the brink
of giving him my love
or
that i did.
I'd paint his picture,
late at night in my room
he sitting in the sunlight facing me like god.
But --
I'm working a lot these days, trying to save for a car,
and there's no time for this sadness,
or so i tell myself.
and I'm filling my nights with grey smoke
and big groups of people,
or quiet reading.
And if i were being honest with myself,
beyond the layers of love,
I'd tell you about how underneath,
there is a tired heart,
and how it's little rivers of gold
are slowly fading.
Feb 15, 2015
Feb 15, 2015 at 4:41 AM UTC
And if I were being honest with myself,
I'd say how much I miss him,
Draw his fingers on my notebook.
If I were feeling brave enough,
I'd tell you about the colour of his bare skin,
tell you how beautiful he was when the light poured in.
If I could bear to think about it,
I'd crawl through the spaces in my head, where love leaked in,
And stay a while.
If I were being honest with myself,
I'd admit how
I was actually on the brink
of giving him my love
or
that i did.
I'd paint his picture,
late at night in my room
he sitting in the sunlight facing me like god.
But --
I'm working a lot these days, trying to save for a car,
and there's no time for this sadness,
or so i tell myself.
and I'm filling my nights with grey smoke
and big groups of people,
or quiet reading.
And if i were being honest with myself,
beyond the layers of love,
I'd tell you about how underneath,
there is a tired heart,
and how it's little rivers of gold
are slowly fading.
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