You're not good enough
Lying in the floor of your bedroom
Desperately trying to catch a breath
Through the tears you've been holding.
*Stop it.
You can breathe just fine.*
Eyes scanning over old messages
And the little empty arrow
Both serving as proof that he doesn't care.
*You knew that though.
And you still let it happen.*
Fingers grasping for the cool metal blade
As it kisses your skin for the first time in months.
*Such a ***** for attention and ***
Get a hold of yourself, ****
Lips dancing on the silver spoon
As its repeatedly brought to your lips.
You can feel your thighs swell with each bite
And your stomach jiggle with each sip.
*Keep eating honey.
You never had enough self control anyways.*
Mind wandering
From school studies to pointless topics.
Grade lowering with every text sent
And minute not spent studying.
*Thats okay darling
It's not like you ever really had a chance at college.*
You're not good enough.
You'll never be good enough.
Stop trying.
Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 1:41 AM UTC
You're not good enough
Lying in the floor of your bedroom
Desperately trying to catch a breath
Through the tears you've been holding.
*Stop it.
You can breathe just fine.*
Eyes scanning over old messages
And the little empty arrow
Both serving as proof that he doesn't care.
*You knew that though.
And you still let it happen.*
Fingers grasping for the cool metal blade
As it kisses your skin for the first time in months.
*Such a ***** for attention and ***
Get a hold of yourself, ****
Lips dancing on the silver spoon
As its repeatedly brought to your lips.
You can feel your thighs swell with each bite
And your stomach jiggle with each sip.
*Keep eating honey.
You never had enough self control anyways.*
Mind wandering
From school studies to pointless topics.
Grade lowering with every text sent
And minute not spent studying.
*Thats okay darling
It's not like you ever really had a chance at college.*
You're not good enough.
You'll never be good enough.
Stop trying.
I dont want you to leave I don't want to eat I dont want to fail classes I don't want to relapse I don't want to cry.
Funny how nothing goes my way.
