Feb 2011
And then I made a conscious
Decision
to eat my pain to fill the void
Friends don't matter
Expression devoid
of the emotion
that I thought I had
an invitation?
None to be had
Not for me
and it always
Has to be
Me. to initiate
a line of invitation
to communicate
or else I don't go
I don't get to see
the real colors of
the friends that I thought
I had next to me
I see that time is of the essence
essentially,
I am the only one left
I can hang out with my guy
and the shadows that haunt
me at night when I sleep
My guy's amazing,
but other than he
Who do I have?
Nothing but a ridiculous
Boundary
that I cannot seem to cross
They've drawn the line
and laugh at the loss
Friends, ones that I thought I had
I'm screaming,
they whisper that it's all in my head
Decision
to eat my pain to fill the void
Friends don't matter
Expression devoid
of the emotion
that I thought I had
an invitation?
None to be had
Not for me
and it always
Has to be
Me. to initiate
a line of invitation
to communicate
or else I don't go
I don't get to see
the real colors of
the friends that I thought
I had next to me
I see that time is of the essence
essentially,
I am the only one left
I can hang out with my guy
and the shadows that haunt
me at night when I sleep
My guy's amazing,
but other than he
Who do I have?
Nothing but a ridiculous
Boundary
that I cannot seem to cross
They've drawn the line
and laugh at the loss
Friends, ones that I thought I had
I'm screaming,
they whisper that it's all in my head
This turned into somewhat of a rap with the same kind of rhyming pattern as the Gorillaz, and I nod my cap to them in the last stanza. It's a little rough, but I was kind of angry when I wrote it as it seems like my friends always go and do things without me, and unless I actively invite myself, they don't think to call me/text me in order to include me.
My mom always told me that real friends will pick up the phone.
My mom always told me that real friends will pick up the phone.
