I do not look at the stars and think of the immensity of the universe. I see them as quiet selfless guardians, the kind sisters I always wanted. I am their sister, their daughter.
With eyes like a lunar eclipse, I stare at them and say "did you see that?" As though the occurrences of my night were their equivalent of a shooting star.
I hope they see all my smiles the size of galaxies, Where my dimples have their own gravitational pull. I hope they smile at the boys I show them And remark about similar he looks to their dear friend, the man in the moon. I hope they see the supernovas these boys inspire.
And I hope they see when my tears fall like meteors, Leaving comet trails on my cheeks, Or when I feel like there's a black hole developing in my chest When my supernovas start to collapse.
I tell them the tales that they will connect into my constellations, They will tell each other the stories that are the reasons for my shapes.
I do not look at the stars and think of the immensity of the universe. I look at the stars and hope they are amazed by my personal immense universe.
I have a habit of looking up at the stars only after my best and worst nights.