Today it was putting the shaving cream in my left hand that reminded me of the time in my basement bedroom, prompted by Mighty Ducks or some episode of Salute Your Shorts, we filled Eric’s hand with shaving cream and brushed his nose with some equivalent to a feather. There was no way he slept through it. Rather, he played his part, conscious that this was the way he saw to fit in. That moment, we didn’t know how shaving cream felt on your face, or looked on a woman’s legs in the shower. We weren’t aware yet of the hair that would crawl out from us, the scariest places armpits and ***, frightening our sense of normal. Or your friend telling you the embarrassment of her boyfriend’s mother walking in on him shaving, you didn’t know that men shaved any embarrassing place, but she tells you right then (not knowing you loved her) that it is better when his ****’s in her mouth. The women drag razors
over their legs every morning for a sense of clean and then the people who dig the razors into their arms, legs. We weren’t ready. Hearing about the couple whose marriage counselor advised them to have the husband shave the woman’s genitals, her cuts, her sense of emptiness, his wild-eyes. Who do you love now? The woman in the peace-corps with legs- unshaven 16 months. The shaved teen naked on your computer monitor or the woman shaving in the shower next to you, legs, then armpits apologizing, blushing.
Written 2011 during the MFA program at Columbia College Chicago