I always believed that the only way to find myself
was to push everyone away

Part of me wants to be alone
depending on myself, no one else
that way no one could hurt me

Part of me wants to fall so deeply in love
with my eyes closed, no fears, no doubts

I've come to realize that I'd rather feel real, true love
& all the pain that comes with it
than be alone, isolated
within my walls

because feeling pain is better than feeling nothing at all.