there is slavery in my blood cut me open watch the lynchings pour out this is my history you look at my skin and you see beauty in its light in the whiteness inherited from a father who still isn't sure how to love a child much less himself you look at my skin and you expect you expect self hatred to burn like the darkness of my mother's face you expect scars to riddle forearms and thighs a memoir to every long night spent alone in the company of a knife you expect me to compensate and to cope you expect alcohol to stain my breath and a black man's hand to stain my face and yet you crave me like a sin like my body is a blessing and a curse meant to please you i am pretty for a black girl but not black enough to be recognized i am thick thighs and soft lips and you want me on my back with my hands shackled you'll take me back to the days when black bodies were huddled in the belly of a ship black bodies shivering as their deaths rose up on the horizon you'll wrap a rope around my neck and pull get it just tight enough to reminisce pour me a glass of whiskey and say look, there ain't no more strange fruit that didn't get put their by their own kind we is kind to you we is a blessing to you accept my hands accept my mouth let me love you like a slave master love's a whip i will hold you like a tool and your body will leave marks on your brothers' backs let me love you i will teach you whiteness teach you supremacy teach you fear of the black man and worship of a white man's dollar i will keep you civilized girl now get down on your knees it is time to worship
now let me explain there may be slavery in my blood but let me show you what floods from my veins like a blessing let me cut myself open and you can take a look the only self hatred here is meant to act like a guard dog keep my teeth sharp and ready to sink into your neck see the anger that i set a blaze to keep your hands and your mouth as far from my skin as possible you think i taste of mocha and a wild night in bed but i taste more like bloodied knuckles and the teeth of a man who tried to touch me without my permission i am a goddess before i am your lover i am a queen before i am your blessing and i will never be your curse you want my body it comes with everything else every scream that rips from my voice as a black body falls by your father's hands every tear that falls from my eyes as you try to shorten the distance between my body and a grave you want to purchase me then you're going to need more than money gods are worth more than your slave trade will make you queens won't bow if you aren't knighted and the king doesn't want to knight a slave master for his abuse and his dehumanization his animal hands and swallowing mouth i may bleed your history of anger but i will die before i gift it to you in a pretty package the only present you'll be having is the one in which i am a human just as much as you are now get down on your knees it is time to apologize