how does this work?
to be so committed
on such short notice,
to be so invested
without any precursor,
and be unfathomably useless
from your paralyzing beauty
ain't it strange, dear?

i don't mind this gap between my ears
these anxieties or the irrational fears
this broken heart, these wasted years
they fall to the wayside to having you near
yeah that's a stupid thing to want
an incoherent request
i'll admit it over and over again
but i can't deny how strange it is

had i met you a day before
with just enough time
i could have convinced you otherwise
to stay here and reside as mine
or i could be yours,
to take wherever you went
but there i go again
a strange request for someone i just met

but here i am maybe a week later
oh god it's so hard to admit
landlocked, staring at my phone
weak and pitiful, and at your will
waiting to be unignored
for a sign of hope or something more
but take this as a warning sign
i'm a strange one, dear, there's no denying

as fast as i barged into your life
and as fast as you did mine
you can sweep me out
like the piece of trash i am
gone, gone, erased away
off to bug you another day
but when all is said, when all is done
i'll ask you, dear- was it strange? or was it fun?