I'm sorry if you're sleeping. I just kind of realized that I've taken you for granted. Really. You were the only person to care about me or be legitimately nice. I know I ****** up, multiple times. Every time made me realize that you were always good to me. I haven't been good to you. I'm so sorry. Everything started at a time in my life when things were bad. Really ******* bad. You were there and it practically saved my life on multiple occasions. I wish I could be that for you, but I'm not a good person. I've become lazy and self centered and horrible and I know you can see that change in me. You're the only one who noticed I was different. I'm going on a rant I'm sorry. If you can call me please please do it as soon as you can.