I spoke, as the words left my lips I choked. I was drowning in my own tears trying to keep myself afloat by telling myself to swim but it somehow wasn't enough.
Engulfed in the flames I had lit myself on fire just to keep this passion burning but the flicker in the night and the sparkle in my eye has burned out once again- so I realize loneliness is my only friend.
I spoke, choking on the words my lips built for me that my mind didn't have the strength to formulate all I kept saying was no, and I couldn't breathe anymore. My palms became like a statue- a monument of the tragedy I had faced. Built of stone like my current demeanor. I spoke for the first time since you took away my voice. Messages on Facebook encrypting sinister undertone crawled their way into my skin and latched onto my cerebrum and all I saw was gray, there was no black and white anymore- the cortex turned into a vortex and my mind spun facts into theories truth into fiction and I began to wonder if anyone would listen.
But my mother held a stone face- though my hands were stone cold and my face sheet white she held me like I was the only piece of artwork that ever mattered. So I spoke, let the tears drip from my face like I was washing away my mistakes and everything I never had the guts to say. The words slipped from my lips like black ice on a winter day- the kind you stay home from school for it was the kind of cold you never left your house for.
As I told my mother how the man who stole my voice stole my innocence as well, she wept. The days all started to blend together again and once the secret I had been hiding was finally free I wasn't sure I was worth keeping anymore. My mother's face turned cold- and it hasn't felt the heat since..
Soon enough we both clung to the fire in our hearts- too passionate to let it burn out or fade away. Though I've still been swimming in the deep end I don't feel as if I'm drowning much anymore. These days have become watercolors and these nights alone have become acrylics so I guess, I am a masterpiece even if inside there's some tragedy.