And I could not do it I don't know why I keep making lies to myself this way The pavement I tread over The air I turn into carbon It's all not permanent Nothing that is me can stay
Can't make up my decisions my mind my basis of self I'm in a constant daze Help my demeanor screams Won't you, won't he She breathes life I wish I could be It's all your choice they tell at me I've really done Set myself up for defeat
Everything could have been perfect coming up roses Could have possibly been just fine But was just fine what I wanted What I needed to get by I have no interest In anything No nothing at all I'm dead weight sink slouch fall All I do is waste Do you see my purpose here
What I thought I wanted now seems so unclear Fear fear on fear on fear I want to speak and talk but my motivation disappears