And I could not do it
I don't know why I keep making lies
to myself this way
The pavement I tread over
The air I turn into carbon
It's all not permanent
Nothing that is me can stay
Can't make up
my decisions
my mind
my basis of self
I'm in a constant daze
Help
my demeanor screams
Won't you, won't he
She breathes life I wish I could be
It's all your choice they tell
at me
I've really done
Set myself up for defeat
Everything could have been perfect
coming up roses
Could have possibly been just fine
But was just fine what I wanted
What I needed to get by
I have no interest
In anything
No nothing at all
I'm dead weight
sink
slouch
fall
All I do is waste
Do you see my purpose here
What I thought I wanted now seems
so unclear
Fear
fear on fear on fear
I want to speak
and talk
but my motivation disappears