The humble new owner of a pitiful existence wherever I go she follows in close distance With her locks electrified with shine and her claws sharpened so very fine Starting at the ladder in my heart and climbing to my head She wonders why I wish I was dead Always avoiding emotion, building up pouring out like the deepest ocean I try to calm her, stop her tantrums but she's a swingset back and forth with moods at random Says she's seen a lot, that I couldn't understand her pitiful existence doesn't justify her being with a man She doesn't want your help or smile or sorrow Tells me she wishes to never see a tomorrow The secrets she keeps will never be known to me Assuring she doesn't have any, that of all sin she's free Never knowing always guessing the fatal cycle of hoping feeling raging forgetting Every tear of hers I've felt on my skin was like pure cyanide Another man couldn't handle the somber anguish it brings me inside Her eyes trying to disguise her demise into the netherworld I've tried everything imaginable to try to save this girl She was young and naive, tried to convince me she didn't know what she was doing Yet any man with two eyes and ears and hands could have seen it was love we were pursuing And now that the first love's wooing is ended She wants a friendship to keep us mended But I just couldn't get it, don't understand what she's thinking the thing that broke my heart wants to watch as I'm limping Wants to help me along and pretend to be strong as I'm feeling my whole life slip from my grip Dependent on the nurture and the loving-caring drama all I thought I wanted was to hold her in my arms Never should have trusted those lying little hands Or the way she told me she'd never want another man She broke the chains and ****** up the plan My heart is being picked apart by her plucking of its strings she's reached down snatched me and tore off my wings She steals all my dreams and twists them into nightmares And anywhere my mind tries to escape she goes there Why this ***** tries to tell me to love another, I can't comprehend When she knows she's the only one I'll ever want in my bed And now I'm standing in a pool of impossible with an ending to this hell nowhere in sight I keep on lying to myself sobbing, saying maybe one day I'll be reborn into some light I still love her but my passion is laced and saturated with hate Intertwined with the loathing she's served me on a plate For somehow forgetting the oaths The ones she's condemned us and forced us to forsake Forever now seems like a lot of type of mind-******* when you know your story ends just like the rest of them If she was remotely forgettable, I'd dispose her from my mind in a minute But that can never happen for this humble owner of this once-meaningful existence