I thought that I scrubbed all the parts of me that you touched clean from traces of you. but I didn't. because you can't scrub someone's smile from your heart, and you can't scrub someone's laugh from your ears once you've fallen madly in love with it. and you can try and **** those parts of you with so much ***** that you can't walk straight. but the only thing you won't be able forget is his name. how it rolls off your tongue like it's supposed to be there for the rest of your life. and god help me because I can give back your clothes but I can't put memories of you holding me so tight that all my broken pieces are whole again into a box. and I can't fold 3 am phone calls into a box to throw at him when he says he doesn't want me anymore. and I'm still here 4 months later my body shaking like a thunder storm, that you loved so ******* much. but where are you, when you promised to always be here and now you're gone loving someone else.