I eat bread I drink wine I get drunk because you’re not here and I need to eat you, I need to drink you and be drunk of you. Everything seems disgusting when you’re so far away and I cannot do all the things I wished to do, and say all the things I wished to say. So I’m here in my small room, all alone waiting for some other thing to arrive to eat, to drink or to get drunk with, all because you are not here or I am not there and that makes me feel so miserable I don’t even want to look at my *****.