Why am I alive
I'd be better off dead
A life of Terra
Lives in my head

Home invasions of people
That want to be free
The noise, The sights
Distractions of Death

I fear for my life
Do I want to be dead
The memories  won't pass
These thoughts stay in my head

I wish this on no one
These feelings I hold
I take it out on everyone around me
I can't keep it sound

Why can't I think clear
Help should be near
I feel with the trigger
Only to know
I feel something dear

My wife, My kids
They don't understand
They ask me why
All I do is cry

I try to love
To figure out why
I hope one day
I can open my eyes