My God, I am down on my knees, please help me fight my demons. I am filled with envy, I am filled with hate, I am overcome with anger. Remove these from me. I realize that sometimes it takes being knocked off your feet to be reminded of the mercy of the Lord, but finding myself in this position, I struggle to keep faith. I desire to praise you even in the darkest of times, in the midst of trials. But I am too battered and worn to lift my head. Please give me the strength. Help me to see that your will is greater than any plan I ever imagined. Help me believe that you are sovereign, and that your “no” means “I have something greater in store”. I will fight this battle within me and around me until I can stand, victorious. I will win the war. Until this moment, down on my knees, I had forgotten that I cannot do this alone. Without you, Lord, I am nothing. I am a mere mortal waiting to die. But with you, I am victorious. I am more than just my flesh, I am my soul. I pray to you, asking you to help this truth become buried inside of my heart. Tonight, as the demons of hate, envy, and anger rip me apart, I pray that I find the strength to push them aside. Instead I will fill myself with love, as I fill myself with you. You are love. I desire to be more and more like you each day. I am far from this – my imperfections far outweigh my good. I am a sinner, but your mercy makes me whole, and for that I am forever thankful. I pray these things in your holy name, Amen.