My mind paints innumerable pictures,
With eyes wide open I’m lost in dreams.
There’s a strong tussle inside my head
To get me out of fantasy, the reality screams.
Is it a means I use to get away from the world?
Or will the vision transform into a lovely reality?
Is the nature conspiring to take me to you?
Or do I day dream to hide my destiny’s frailty?
One moment I’m closer to heaven on earth
The other brings me crashing down to truth.
I’m torn between sensibility and desires
At once, I abhor myself and exude self- ruth.
There’s a storm brewing inside my soul
I know what I want but cannot have it.
I’m so far away from where I want to be
I know I can’t have it but I still want it.
There is a way to get it and I know where it is.
I’m trying desperately to tread that road.
A million forces are pulling me back…
But one glimpse of you is enough to goad.
If it’s not meant to be, why do I see the signs?
They seem like subtle steps carrying me to you
And when my deep belief gains further strength,
I find myself at square-one without a clue!
The dream that is my only reason to be alive
Is the very murderer that kills me everyday.
It’s weird how the most beautiful part of me
Can turn my life into a living hell this way.