I pair my hands side by side the servant that I am I am nothing but that and I give thanks in the most kind ways that I did not brake the way I thought I would after your stigmatic body passed through mine
your poise was perfect and you walk with your hands trailing behind your back pointer finger slightly extended the orchid swan holding in her tongue holding in the poison
no architect could have built our castle ancient ruins falling atop each other like the moon falls into my scorned eyes in the midnight when I sit with myself when the ache hits the center of my black lungs when the melancholy sighs to me as if her pain is greater when I knowΒ Β that the true haunted king sleeps in my stomach arising and coming out of my throat every so often
while I am sitting on the bench while I am leaning on the wall inhaling those gray fumes while I am reading my book that is when that king comes to me and wraps me in his hopeless melodies of the days where we shared the same lips
and all I can do is give thanks that I did not brake the way I thought I would that the wound though alive and breathing with its open sore of reds and pinks pearls and hatred did not slit me in half from head to toe
I know with my skin that you take pride in my pain somewhere in your days you sulk in the compassion that I hurt for you it makes you feel wonderful and special it makes you feel unique and beautiful
that me, who has had love conveyed to me in a thousand tongues sits here alone like a cement column numb and baring nothing receiving nothing, maybe simply existing if that
you tread your eyes upon these poems knowing in your darkest place that they belong to you knowing in your darkest corners that you tore me knowing in that part of your soul that stood naked in front of me and how that part hid and wore a cloak of white as to distract me from those short comings where you left me with a welted heart here on my pillow gasping for air that would rather choke than be held by you again