nadir*
always at my lowest
nadar
which means to swim in English
my biggest fear is drowning in water
my body descending to the ocean floor
i had nightmares where i would wake up in a massive body of water
like
the planet neptune
this circular shaped water tank with no escape
a wreath
i swam to the top and never found air to breathe
when i woke up i inhaled
like there was no tomorrow
in hell
i suffered from the same nightmare
except
dreaming of water is like heaven
scorching flames devastated
the inhabitants of the inferno
my heart still cold
i survived
invierno
which means winter in English
the only thing i liked about the winter was the lowest temperature
made me feel numb
numb like my body when i recall the dream where i drown
i no longer look down if i am flying above water
im a bird
the third time i reincarnate
and all i remember
is the word fate
carved into my anklet