i don't recognize you anymore
it's like starting into
blank spaces,
your words are hostage
between your frozen pages
a story left in the middle of the action,
your timing is drowsy, undeserving of
reactions.

when i walked outside
one fine summer day
the waves of sunshine
left me in such disarray
that i had to gasp for a lifeline,
claw for my breath,
and as i cleansed myself,
somewhere behind me you stood -
i left.

i don't miss you anymore
not much
days go by where i don't think
not about your laugh, your sea urchin
touch
and ****, it feels good, not to worry
and fret,
over a boy i once loved, whose poison
i thought i'd never forget

how lovely it is, to stand alone
no longer waiting for calls that won't come
i don't quiver with fear, nor do i
ooze regret
how free i am, at last -
i am home.