I found you quietly settled into my bones
an evangelical arthritis that cracked not only my structure but also my soul
and you slid down my spine for enjoyment
I found you clogging my veins after I told you to leave
flooding my lungs making it impossible to breathe
you shined with harsh lights that sting my eyes which had only known the dark
but the sting was unbearable

two people in love
as much as in hate
too proud to abandon this ship and save ourselves
we are falling like an airplane; plummeting through the sky
we have lost all hope
you can see it in our eyes
we ride this plane down
alternating between holding each other
and yelling from opposite ends of the plane
even as we are plummeting
we are torn apart
yet unable to let go
as the ground approaches now i desperately scream "save me! hold me close to you!"
so we can stand together
one last time
as defiance to the wreckage
but you stood there
watching me engulfed in flames

so when you asked to leave, i was relieved to be alone
i wasn't even hungry
and incase you wondering
it didn't take a pill to keep me sane
i have almost breathed deeper knowing that
you are on your own tonight
I didn't drive home in tears this time
when you said goodbye
instead i revved my god ****** engine
my heart is still beating
my ribs are not broken
my mind was never ruined
i am not brewing in darkness, wide eyed and hopeless
pleading to an omnipotent being
that 17 is just too young