silence
over the call
what is the point of all of this?
i can try to mute it, but i know
that i am afraid i will miss something.
even though i know that i already am ---
even though i know that it's already too late.
i lost.
why not mute myself? since i am unwanted
since all i am is an aggravation
why not mute myself? since i am a nusiance
since all i am is an inconvenience

and yet no one will tell me the truth
please
just please
telll me that you don't want to
tell me that you don't want to talk to listen to be involved at all
just tell me
and i promise you i will
be gone.