My world is crumbling down again. I just want you to hug me. To reassure that everything will be fine. You want to come back. I recall all of those nights wishing you where there for me. Yet now I don't want you back. As much as it pains me I don't need you. She may need you but I don't. You have taught me to put my trust in no one.  
I honestly want to end my miserable life. I am so tired of a the *******. I don't know who to trust, who to cry out with. I am acting as if I have no care for the situation, yet it kills me every time when I realize you haven't changed. You wanna come back, sure. But not inside my heart. You have been restricted for life. I hope you have an awesome life with her. Hope you try to make her happy.