in the bathroom.
palms sweating, heart racing.
in the mirror.
eyes screaming, hard breathing.

as my emotions overwhelm me;
crashing down like a thousand seas.
my reasons to live diminish.

'what the **** is it gonna take for you to understand?'
'where is your control Rachael?'
'your life is disappointing beyond words.'
words from the people I love.

i try, i'm trying.
i lie, i'm lying.
but i tried, i promise.
no i lied, i'm sorry.

one more time i'll cry,
because i no longer have the strength to get by.
it's a ******* pain to be a pain..
so why not end it all?

blade in hand, wrist in sight.
my only wish is to end my plight.

so selfish, so selfish.
think about those who care for you.
i don't give a ****.
i swear for this is what they wish.

sitting in my blood with my demons..
fully aware that they have won.
could've swore i heard them say to Satan..
'this time we have her, it's nearly done.'

losing consciousness, i smile..
on my way to hell.
hey, i'll see you in a while.
you know it,
i can tell.

-{r.r.r.w}