you were not the saint your yellowed hands and stained, creased eyes would make you out to be. you told me you had kissed some other girl and that she was nothing like me and thatβs what you liked about her.
you called her chaos and said that every time i locked my thumbs together the bones began to decay. you said that you hated when my hair covered my eyes because i never wore it back. you said my voice never rose above a whisper and you were right even though you never asked me why.
you were lying when you pretended that you were something better than me. your ankles had grown together from the years of letting them hang languidly and some ugly weeds (wildflowers) had held them there. every word you spoke was folded carefully like an origami bird that you spit out from the back of your throat, polished in a sugardrop gloss sticking to the seams. you knew the presentation was just as important as the message and maybe i knew it too once.
i started off planning to write about me but it never works out.