Let me go before I die,
All I can do is hurt and cry.
I am so tired of all this pain,
You make me go insane.
I think I wont miss you,
Yet I know I will too.
I know I love you
And want you...
And it is time to move on,
I will be so long gone.
The tears will not stop flowing til I am free
Free with him to be...
Can you see it hurts me
Hurts with you, I cant be.
I scream so silently
Holding back violently
Passionate thoughts.
Love is all I have sought.
Is it here with you?
Or did we lose that too?
I give up everything for you
I do all you ask me to do...
Each time it rips apart
A small peice of my beating heart.
I am no longer human
Something not quite demon,
Monsterous inside
Its dark and it does hide.
It seeks ultimate release
Or my pain will not cease.
I take all this to keep you
From hurting too.
And now I see,
The one to end all pain wont be me.
I hurt you, him, or me.
And I have two lil ones that see
And feel my pain.
Will it all be in vain?
I beg it to all end,
To the blackness please send.
If the demon I hold
Gets too bold
It will wreak havoc on everything,
A sight to behold among other things.
The blood will flow,
His starvation will only grow.
I keep him at bay,
With all I have each day...
And now my will has worn thin,
Will this be the end?
Let me go free,
Or all will see,
What I really am inside,
Will you hide?
The destruction will befall
You, me and all...
What I need you cannot be,
Please stand back and see.
Either be that man for me
Or just let me be... Free!