Feelings that I should not feel,
People telling me I should just deal.
This endless cycle twisting in my mind.
Can no one be truly kind?
One day I may have the courage I seek,
One day I may not be so weak.
Everyone telling me its wrong not right,
One day I will not runand hide, I'll fight.
One day I will stand up and face my fears,
Someday no more hurt and blinding tears.
Can someone just love me?
One day free the me I see...
The me hiding inside,
The chaotic thoughts put aside
One day can you hold me?
The unending thoughts of suicide.
Admitting that yes, I lied.
That self mutilation is what tried.
Knowing you couldn't love me, I cried.
You said the hateful hurting words,
And yes it was he who you drove me towards.
No longer depend on a man,
On my own two feet I shall stand.
Love me or leave me,
Or it'll wind up bad see.
One day I'll either fight,
Or take the blade, I just might.