It's just a joke

Must have had victim tattooed on my forehead,
Easy target some of the things that you said,
Did you see me coming a mile away,
I'm still thinking about those scars today,
The more you react the more I win was what you said,
I didn't know what to think,
We are just joking we don't mean any harm,
Oh my god you are so serious, it's all about the charm,
A joke is where everybody is laughing too,
But in this case the only one's laughing were you,
You said you missed the abuse even though there was no excuse,
Feeling the inferior, there was the hysteria,
Walking the playground on my own,
My knee's begin to buckle when I was alone,
Sometimes it was a dream was it like it seems,
After the abuse, when you made me feel not much use,
When your looking for any excuse,
After walking through the fire and the smoke,
To you it was just a joke.