i want to see the pigment of your eyes what if they are more than i imagine? i want to feel the coarseness in your voice, reverberate against my soft skin what if it is more than i can fathom? i wish i could stop asking questions, but glad you make me ask them should i dye my hair a brilliant purple, tattoo 'crazy' on my collarbone, act like someone you just met, but have always known? there we go again, asking rhetorical questions because you can't answer when you have to hear across the clatter of all fifty states, wish for clean slates or some time in your bed, wake me, from the dead just like we play it, cause we're so demented our hearts are black, our breath cigarette scented we don't buy into religion, or this world we live in and the last thing i vest my faith in is you with your black and white art, the way you pull me apart and ****, your heart is beautiful i devour you unusual and wish that i was what you craved made you this manic and depraved or at least that i could cure you that you might maybe pull through so we could spend our time together in the graveyards the sun would shine on our arms where we intertwined like vines fade like passing time and finally be alone finding solace in our home but i'm wasting precious hope, becoming my own ghost because i can't take what isn't mine so i'll get drunk off ancient wine, pretend that i am fine and wait for morning to face me, wait for scars to grace me and while you wait for C, i will save your seat on the shore of this warm ocean, cause i know your wounds are open and the salty brine of love and rhyme will heal them all, from me.