You told me I'm a better than I give myself credit for being
But, how can I believe you, when you don't believe in yourself
I have tried to take your advice, but my animosity keeps breaking through
This animosity of mine will never allow for me to get close to anyone
I will always push away at the faintest hint of happiness
That is why I am not good for you, anguish is all I allow
I wish that I was deserving or worthy but I am not
You have your own demons, you do not need my burden
My burden is my own to bare, alone to suffer
Possibly when this all subsides there will be a chance for me
Unfortunately I have difficulty believing that I can change
I do not believe that I will ever allow myself to get close
I will forever limit myself to a life of obscurity, just me and my insecurities
Too afraid to let you in, let you in to the labyrinth that is me
My only companion, my only comfort, knowing that will never change
Knowing, never fearing anyone using my thoughts against me