I run to my blank pages the way a child with a bruised knee runs to his mother with tears in his eyes and when he falls into her arms he is at peace that is how I feel when I capture that brittle emotion when I forfit it like a slave to my poetry because I do not have a mother anymore because all I have is my words and that is all I really wanted to say because my hurt at this point has no words I just wanted to feel that there was something there for me something waiting for my pain besides myself and I just wiped the mascara from beneath my eyes I just thought about you again please I beg myself to forget you I beg myself to forget all those simple and beautiful things about you while you drench yourself in love