why can't  you think
of how your actions
cause negative consequences
where i trip over my own feet
in attempts to get away from you,
so you can't see
where my heart chips, breaks,
and the stones,
falling heavy into the ocean,
that send tidal waves
only one third survivable.

where most of the time
i see no reason to try to swim,
i can't control my arms
and i choose just to drown
in flowing rivers,
and collapse within myself
like a flower that's seen it's
time in the spotlight of life.

you make me cry a lot.

|m.s.