I dream of another life, please don't wake me up I'm sick of dealing with the ironic hatred of love and the hatred of me, because I hate what I see and they say you can change but it's not physical, it's me
I pray for motivation, I want to be someone to admire but my mind is burning me, please put out the fire and I keep running in circles, please stab this tire I am programmed to fail, please rewire
I want to pull the plug on my mind, hope it doesn't reboot, but each time I try it does not compute, so I'm trapped in a box it just learns to defy, I just want to die
but I don't at the same time, I get sad and ******* stupid so I bleed these sad rhymes I bleed these sad rhymes and I keep bleeding every second I breathe the more my minds feeding on me sad, wanting to stop breathing this hatred inside just won't stop breeding so a seedling is planted and the anxiety grows no happy ending for me as far as the storybook knows I'm always ******* sad and it really goes to show they don't know how I feel it really goes to show and I don't even know me anymore
who am I?
no one you want to know I'll infect you with my problems until you want to go
I guess it's fall my tree of friends are leaving I am no widower, but I'm still grieving