It blows my mind that you stayed
I thought you were going to leave
Just like last time
I sat, enjoying my night
Until I noticed

You were holding her hand.
You never held my hand.

Two shadows walking under street lamps
So easy to miss, so hard to ignore
The image is burned on the back of my eyelids
Reflecting even in the safe haven
Of my own darkness

Honestly, you have the best timing
Right when I thought I was getting better
I’ve relapsed
And my thoughts have been consumed
With those mocking blue eyes and
Jutting jaw and
Snooty personality

All of your worst qualities
Are those I remember and yet
Those are which I cannot stand
I’ve found someone better, honestly

And he’s just like you

Only improved –
No snotty remarks, no sarcastic “Fantastic”
No rants on the philosophy of our existence
Or short stories with only a beginning

This itself is a beginning
And I intend for it to be
One that makes me finally happy