i thought i was okay
fresh waves of dislike wash over me
as does rain plummeting towards gravity

must you ruin my happiness?

all i want is to cut those final ties
though, knowing myself,
they will always dominate over
my hold on sanity

why can you move on but i cant?
ive tried diversion, ive tried disregarding
my rapid heartbeat when i accidentally
venture near your vicinity

how come this always happens?
focus focus focus
comparing his kisses to yours
no no no
his sleeping habits to your tossing and turning
stop stop stop
its honestly involuntary
reminders reminders reminders

im trying to gain an allergy to you.