Skin’s crawling, the edge of square roofs glowing with a cold sweat, eyes are sharper at the crack of a brown dawn. Dogs own dominion in fish markets that smell of yesterday.
Their lives and mine are perfect by the all too human reckoning of a life’s worth calculated by wants supplied.
A lone cyclist pedals a basket of dew-drenched vegetables to his usual earthen haunt and tarpaulin, swerving around the territorial pack as they change course, trot over and throng me muddy paws on the best clothes I own, breath smoking in the dry chill, I buy myself a pack as the cigarette vendor unpacks his wares out of damp sacks, it is a miracle that my breath does not catch fire or that my eyes have not turned into cotton-*****.
Yet another stranger has brought me home to the sputter of a third-world petrol engine. He gets his fare, it’s only fair, and I’m just glad that I will sleep, I have nowhere to be in the morning, I have adventured and now I am tired and there is a yawning hole that I slip into without knowing.
It is warm at last, I cradle my head with the soft side of one hand, as if it were mother’s, and this is well, for as things stand, my dreams welcome me in and their characters are so familiar, that I may have just woken up from a foggy, unmemorable dream into childhood sweet and clear.
A poem about alcohol fueled mornings, and a bone-weariness that only comes from maintaining a routine.