I NEVER WRITE ABOUT YOU BECAUSE I CANT BREATH I CANT SLEEP I CANT DECIDE IF I LOVE YOU OR I HATE YOU OR MAYBE I HATE MYSELF BECAUSE I KEEP LETTING YOU BACK IN MY MIND OH GOD IM A MESS AND MAYBE YOU LIKED IT THAT WAY OR MAYBE YOU JUST LIKE TO WATCH ME BREAK BUT EITHER WAY I WISH YOU WOULD STOP TALKING TO ME AND I WISH I WOULD STOP TRYING TO FIND YOU IN LITTLE THINGS AND I WISH YOU KNEW HOW YOU FEEL AND I WISH YOU DIDNT GRAB ME WHILE YOU WERE HOLDING HER HAND BECAUSE I THINK YOU WERE ALSO HOLDING MY HEART .