My only power is my greatest weakness Although I hide my pain inside this fragile fortress I give myself completely to anyone and everyone Who come strolling down the path into my heart. Past the blindness of the gargoyles that I built To watch over all that makes me vulnerable. Through the walls of clay that I have erected To protect myself from hurting. Walls that crumble in the Face of the simplest kindness whether or not it is real or perceived. If my face was made of stone and my insides Were as Cold as I tell myself that other peoplesβ are not I would be protected from all Of the earthshattering heartbreak that Is always one step away from removing the ground From beneath my feet and plunging me Down into the chasm of despair. That bleak abyss where my only comfort Is the story that I tell myself every day, The lie I must choose to believe in order to survive. That those who I have given the fragments of myself to Will hold them and cherish them, And use them to rebuild me at the top of the cliff Instead of raining them down onto my bowed head and broken spirit. As if I were a martyr and they my executioners. I love too much and I love to easily I am never afraid to take a leap of faith Until it is too late and I reach the other side Of this chasm to find that there is nothing there No friendship, no gratitude, No understanding, No help No place to rest my head or Friend to help me shoulder my burden When this boulder I carry Begins to crush me between the weight Of loneliness and the hardness of my hopeless thoughts. Again and again I cry out for comfort, But the echo of my pleas, returning to my ears as a mockery Is the only comfort that I find. So I continue pretending that the voice I hear Is not my own and the things I tell myself To keep me going are words ringing Out from a stranger in a distant land Where friendship has meaning and hope is alive And there is someone there who is willing To share, their heartache with me In return for becoming A tree I can lean on. A place to shelter myself in the time of storm