I figured it out-
The reason why I have not been able
To forget you
Or memories of you,
That some days I wish
I could run freely into your arms
Or feel your warmth,
And I sometimes see your ghost
Roaming about my day
Or lingering like a disease in my head.

I figured it out,
Why you are still present,
Though you are in the past.

I have decided to let go of you a while ago,
To eradicate the moment we first met,
As if you never existed.
But it never worked because I
Still shamelessly walk around hoping
For you to come and rescue me
From the memory of you.

I know what it is that keeps me from
Forgetting you.
I've moved on and closed that part of me
That holds your chapter.
But I realize what it is that keeps me running to you,
It's the fact that I do not forgive you of what you've done-
To me, To yourself and to who we were,
My innocence and faith.