One after the other,
your laugh even changed.
Chuckles to snarls,
nothing more to be gained.

When all went black, and all came back..
I took it as an omen to reflect
to evaluate and dissect.

But you were:

Draped in satin and sin,
Lead eyes growing heavy, weary, dim.
Lay where you want, it all stains the same,
when in search of someone to blame.

Now there's something inside, churning so slow.
A day old hate fester, begging to explode.
A faux hatred, meaningless it's true.
An excuse to keep doing exactly what you do.

Incentive to change came in the form of a heart.
Light from a sunken chest bearing a new start.
Beating for you, screaming for you,
Taken for granted, ripped completely in two.

And I laid there every night
Wondering if you were even alive.
Your face burned so deep in my mind
Scorched past the clutches of time.

Still you cramp, wounded in the womb
Still you lay wrapped in satin and gloom
It's toxic how you stay,
It's toxic; a refusal to stray.
But I sit here my dear, day after day
Lathered in discomfort, bathed in dismay.